A Confusion

Today, I had attended one of the presentations of Dr. Vandana Shiva, she had come to our university. It was great actually the best I have ever attended in my life. When she spoke the whole auditirum was mesmerized. She has done so very much in her life its so motivating to listen to someone like her. But after all this I am here confused and highly disturbed by the violence within. Questioning myself that will I ever be able to do something for the benefit of mankind?, people like Dr. Shiva who do so very much push me all the more harder in the same direction. Question I am asking myself is that all of what I want to do in life can I actually do that? I always want to do some actual social work in life. I have known this since my high school that I have to extend a helping hand to those who actually need one. I have always been thinking of going to villages in India and teach women about their personal hygiene and tell them how important they are for their families and the world. Now, again the question arises that how do I manage to do all this as certainly this is not my "Career" I am trying to be an economist and want to help people with whatever little I know on my path. But as always I am confused feeling like standing in woods with no clue regarding the direction to follow to get where I want to. There are so many tasks to be accomplished when I cook even before finishing it, I start thinking about the dishes, after dishes I generally go for a walk while talking a walk I have to think about the home works and research to be done. By the time I go to bed I have nothing to think about as I am so very exhausted by the entire day schedules, now I ask again when will be able to go to a village and teach something to those. Why I cannot find some time for the deadline which I have been extending since my high school.